23 Jul
Combine the new moon (don’t sleep on the effects a total eclipse can have) and me not having sugar, and you get a crazed lunatic.
Well, not really. I just feel kinda off balance and irritated. I pray this is not a stressful day at work today. I work in one of those offices where several people have “candy bowls” full of chocolate sweets. Lord, help me.
*reaching for a carrot*
22 Jul
Blogging…oh, how I’ve forsaken thee. Ok, I haven’t written in a while. Let’s just call it a vacation. A break if you will. 
Raw is hard for me right now. I fell off the wagon, yet again on a trip home the weekend after the 4th of July holiday. Oh, Dairy Queen…you are a vile temptress. Luckily, there are not easily accessible DQ locations in DC (I think the closest one is in Bowie Town Center). Between DQ and Sonic (Sonic Blast with Reese’s cups…*drool*) my ice cream habit was in full effects.
*sigh*
Back on the wagon. I’ve added wheat germ to my morning smoothies and I make sure I have a “ready to do battle” bag with me all day. Carrots, grapes, etc. Oh no, the munchies won’t get me.
Today’s challenge: Going to happy hour on U Street. What place that serves bar food has anything raw I can eat? Um…I’m thinking none. On top of that, I’ve had a rough week and I could really, really use a drink. I’m going to pass and hope that the caring words of the dear friend I’m meeting at happy hour will suffice.
Blessings
18 Jul
I’ve been 80-100% Raw Vegan for the last month…give or take a weekend. The thing that most surprises me is that eating the same things all most every day is not that bad. A lil boring at times, but not a bad thing. Most days I eat some combination of the following:
Smoothie: Some combo of Bananas, Strawberries, Mango, Spinach
Grapes
Baby Carrots
Raw Nuts: Sunflower seed, Walnuts, Cashews
Water
Raw Honey
Dates
Huge Salad: Romaine, Spinach, Orange slices, sprouts, etc
There is something very comforting about knowing what I’m going to eat. My mind wanders off less. I’m not pondering french fries. I’m not considering shrimp or McDonald’s double cheeseburgers. Why, because I’ve already made up my mind about what I’m going to eat way ahead of time. It’s really quite good, actually.
17 Mar
I’m back to posting again.
Back to being sugar free. No processed sugar. Eating only raw. Fell off the wagon…again…at the start of March.
I really had to realize that a lot of my life choices have been very juvenile. Like my inner child was running me. So…I’ve put it in time out. Health is something that you should take very seriously in your adult life. I don’t want to wait till 50 or 60 to try to catch up in terms of my health. I’m making decisions now to keep cancer, diabetes, ect at bay.
21 Feb
I’ve stopped losing weight for other people. I’ve let go of that perception. I realized the only person I can really influence with my positive change is me. I think a lot of women has had the thought that their weight lost would be the perfect revenge on ex-lovers or lovers that you never loved (only wanted from afar). The thought “When I’m sexy and smaller, he’ll be sorry!” is one that many women have uttered. I know I’m not alone.
I realized that I’m going through this transformation for me. I’m in control of my words, my thoughts, and my actions. That’s it. I’m not in control of what other people say or do, so to make changes in my life in anticipation that someone will love or accept me because of these changes is a pipe dream (and not really what I want in my heart). Without chastising myself, I understand how wrong my thinking has been. How is has be devaluing. I am important. My health and happiness is the priority, not some scheme of love. I’m making positive healthy changes in my life by eating raw food, by becoming a raw foodist.
I’m doing this for me, for once. And it feels so good. I feel so free.
