I’ve stopped losing weight for other people. I’ve let go of that perception. I realized the only person I can really influence with my positive change is me. I think a lot of women has had the thought that their weight lost would be the perfect revenge on ex-lovers or lovers that you never loved (only wanted from afar). The thought “When I’m sexy and smaller, he’ll be sorry!” is one that many women have uttered. I know I’m not alone.
I realized that I’m going through this transformation for me. I’m in control of my words, my thoughts, and my actions. That’s it. I’m not in control of what other people say or do, so to make changes in my life in anticipation that someone will love or accept me because of these changes is a pipe dream (and not really what I want in my heart). Without chastising myself, I understand how wrong my thinking has been. How is has be devaluing. I am important. My health and happiness is the priority, not some scheme of love. I’m making positive healthy changes in my life by eating raw food, by becoming a raw foodist.
I’m doing this for me, for once. And it feels so good. I feel so free.
Posted by kaelovinlife on March 11, 2009 at 3:53 pm
Loved reading your blog. How liberating?! Hope you get a chance to drop by and check out some of my blogs. I’m new at this but it’s so therapeutic to write. http://www.kaelovinlife.wordpress.com. Have a great day!
Posted by kaelovinlife on March 14, 2009 at 11:02 pm
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